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{Samuel is only sad in this pic because he couldn’t get the dollhouse door to open}
{Hannah caught that sad face when she took the super cute pics from the other day}
{However, there are times I want to cry like that.}
I know it will take time for Samuel to heal.
They’ve told me it can take months.
I just want him to feel good.
Most of the day.
Not just part of the day.
Seeing him sad or in pain or tired hurts.
Because I can’t take it away.
And I want to fix it.
Make it better.
Make it go away.
Put a bandaid on it.
Make the Celiac Disease disappear.
And I can’t.
So sometimes I feel helpless.
Sad.
Angry.
Overwhelmed.
But mostly sad.
His little body should be full of energy.
He should be hard to put down for a nap.
Not want to take a nap.
Reach for the crib.
And sleep for hours.
But even with all of this — he’s healing.
I see him like food more.
{We just need his body to absorb the nutrients.}
Still
He eats.
He laughs.
The twinkle is coming back.
It’s just taking time.
It’s not instant.
{I wish it was instant.}
I’ll be here for him.
Good days.
And sad days.
I’ll be here.
I’ll be here.
I’ll be here.
6 comments
Samuel is blessed to have a mama like you. I love the sad picture! 🙂
Praying for you and your sweet boy.
xoxo
Jessica
I’m so sorry about all ya’ll are going through! I’ll be praying. 🙂
Blessings,
Moriah
Oh,Rachel, I do understand what you are feeling. Our son was 7 when he was diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes and his life and our lives was forever changed. It knocked the wind out of my sails for a time but we all did make the necessary adjustments and life continued on. Praise the Lord he is a healthy 34 year old man today and takes his condition very seriously. I pray this will be true for little Samuel. Blessings to you for a wonderful weekend with your sweet family.
Oh my goodness! He’s adorable even when he’s crying. I’m praying that he will get stronger every day. What a cutie pie Samuel is.
I wish Samuel would feel better now. My heart hurts for your precious boy! Sending you lots of hugs!
And the One who loves Samuel even more will always be there. Always. So when you are tired and weary, you have the assurance that you can rest in Him. And Samuel is in the very best hands their are.