19 Responses to “i thought i was invincible”

  1. November 4, 2016

    Michelle Reply

    Rachel, Your words have gotten me thru some dark days of mothering. You’ve inspired me to write when it hurts, as you’ve done here. I was happy to have met you this summer, but left feeling certain you were tired or sad and not happy. I sincerely hope you take your own advice to heart, you are so very worth it.

  2. November 4, 2016

    British American Reply

    This is so timely! I took kids to the dentist this week and tutoring and before school club etc. My daughter called me at school to pick her up as her cough was worse. I took her to Fast Care and then Urgent Care. She has bronchitis. So since I was already there, I got myself seen too and needed a chest xray and the Dr said I was sicker than my daughter! We both got 2 prescriptions. I could feel something in my lung for a few days now, but didn’t even call a nurse to check if I should see a Dr. I told my daughter thanks for coming home sick and asking to see a Dr! I was just waiting to feel worse or get a fever. The Dr said you shouldn’t wait that long because then it’s pneumonia.

    I also had to makes calls to get my kids picked up too. I hope you feel better quickly.

  3. November 4, 2016

    Brenda Reply

    I too found myself in the ER because of the same problem. Ladies, I’d craved ice and more ice for years. I learned that my body was needing the oxygen that is in ice. Heed this! It took 9 units of blood to get me halfway to where my normal blood level should be. I feel so much better, but it’s a process. Thanks Rachel for sharing.

  4. November 4, 2016

    Heidi Benson Reply

    Wow, this was huge. I experience every single one of these symptoms. You wrote this totally describing me. I’m so so sorry you ended up in the ER let alone there alone. Please know if we lived near each other I would have been there holding your hand. I feel like my life mirrors yours to the tea.
    I guess I need to learn from your experience. I too have wondered and told myself everything you have told yourself so somehow I need to put myself on the front burner as my life is difficult at best to do this with.
    Many hugs as you rest and recouperate from this event.

  5. November 4, 2016

    Julie sharp Reply

    I’ve read your blog for quite some time now and totally relate to your writing. I blog myself when I’m inspired and always wonder at how you find the time to write on a daily basis. I fancy myself quite unmotivated quite often! This one really spoke to me. Last year I struggled so heavily with depression and feeling exhausted on an ungodly level every day. I would take the kiddos, now 7 and 9, to school and then come home and sleep most of the day. I knew there was something seriously wrong and couldn’t put a finger on it. Finally had a full blood work analysis and figured out that I was severely anemic. Changed my diet just a bit and can’t believe the difference. It’s amazing that something that seems so insignificant can truly affect our state of mind. Glad you figured it out albeit not the most coveted way possible, but so happy that you’re on the mend and so appreciate the reminder to pay attention to ourselves, our minds and our bodies. Love you, love your heart, love your spirit. Keep doing what you’re doing. The treasures you are storing for yourself in heaven are no doubt immeasurable and the example you are lavishing on your babies is beyond comprehension also.

  6. November 4, 2016

    Amy Reply

    Recently my kids (ages 7 & 10) were at my ex-husband’s house for the night and in the middle of the night, I started to have horrible abdominal pain & became feverish. I writhed in pain on my bed, having no idea what it could be, but determined that I would not go to the ER. However, the pain grew worse & I was worried that when my kids got home in the morning, I would be unconscious (or worse) as they banged on the door, waiting for me to let them in. So I drove myself to the ER at 2 a.m. and as they were examining me, I said, “Whatever this is, I have to be home by 8:15 a.m. b/c my kids are going to be dropped off by their father & I have to be home.” The dr. seemed annoyed & said “I don’t know what’s wrong with you so I cannot promise you that. We have to see your blood work first.” After an ultrasound & bloodwork, they determined it was likely a kidney stone. The dr. was then very nice and did finally say to the nurses, “She has to get home to her kids, let’s get her discharged.” I was home by 7:45 a.m. That is how us moms are: always thinking of our kids first.

  7. November 4, 2016

    Phyllis A. Oller Reply

    God bless you,praying…You are right,of course,phyllis

  8. November 5, 2016

    Samantha Reply

    Hi! Normally I just read your posts, take it in and carry on. I never leave comments etc but I feel I need to today.
    A week ago I was feeling the exact same way you have described. Tired, cranky, finished. I just kept going. Eventually I was dragged to the doctor as I got paler, thinner and found myself so dizzy I couldn’t walk. Diagnosis – anemia and an iron deficiency. If I had left it another week, I’d have been in the er. My brain function was slowing down due to my body not producing enough blood. I am now on medication for the rest of my life, with monthly blood tests to ensure its kept in check.
    I cried for a solid two hours in the bathroom so my 4 year old wouldn’t see me.
    Often I thought to myself, sort him out and then me. Do the laundry, then sit. Another cup of coffee, and I’ll be fine.
    Even as I write this, I’m starting to shake as I need to take my medication. So my 4 year old can stay without pants for 5 more minutes because if I don’t take it, ill find myself on the floor.
    Your post came ar the write time as I needed the reminder that it’s okay for him to run around without pants on for 5 more minutes.
    Thank you for sharing your story. It’s really helped.


  9. November 5, 2016

    Justine Reply


    I suffer from panic anxiety and needed up in the ER before I realized it was a serious problem that was getting worse. I loved this article “The Perfect Lie” I’ve read it over and over.

  10. November 5, 2016

    Shelly Cunningham Reply

    Rachel, Thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s true that we just keep pushing through, putting ourselves last and no one wins that way. I appreciate the reminder to take time for myself. I’ll be praying for you.

  11. November 5, 2016

    Pamela Reply

    Dear Rachel,
    Thank you for sharing your story. It lets other moms know they are not alone. I too for years had put myself on the back burner, but I started a new chapter in my life about 3 years ago. I’m so glad I did ! I made a decision to do the things I enjoy doing ( in moderation ) w/o guilt. I also found my family respects me & my time a little more, as do I. Things get better iall the way around when you take time daily doing whatever makes YOU HAPPY !!

  12. November 5, 2016

    Catherine Reply

    The same thing happened to me a few months ago – my iron was near zero. It explained why I felt like a lead balloon that just wanted to lay flat and never move. It is so tough – and when we need to chase our kids, we do just keep plowing through the best we can. Know you aren’t alone in reaching this point, and I pray that you have a speedy recovery! HUGS!

  13. November 5, 2016

    Laura Reply

    Thanks for writing this. I know. I was in the same spot last year – hospital bed – severely anemic. Except doctors weren’t being very nice about it. They were pretty much chewing me out because I should have had a stroke or heart attack or been in a coma. It was that bad. And you know what they mentioned – this very thing that you mentioned. In that condition (or worse) I couldn’t be a mother to my kids. Why, oh why, do we neglect listening to our bodies because we don’t have time? Truth: we don’t have time NOT to. I’m slowly learning still.

  14. November 5, 2016

    Meissa Reply

    I’m sorry you had to learn this a really hard way. This year has been a tough one for me too in learning this. I’ve always got it together and pride myself in getting it done. It came to a halt earlier this year with my gallbladder being removed. I’ve fought this off and on for years and always pushed through but when I had to think about whether or not they’d let me take my kids in the ambulance with me, I realized it wasn’t just about me. So into to surgery I went. Flash forward 6 months past that operation and fighting off pain and such and I had to have another surgery because the first caused a hernia. So two hospital stays in one year and learning to take care of myself again. Hard lessons for this mama.

  15. November 5, 2016

    Tina Harrison Reply

    Here’s me, raising my guilty hand. Thank you for the reminder.

    I’m glad you’re safe and will be able to continue on in this world.

  16. November 5, 2016

    Cindy Cook Reply

    As a Single Mom for over 20 years… I certainly can attest to what you wrote about and lived…… Even though I coach people every day, I still am faced with the constant battle to “take care of me”.

    Thanks so much for the reminder…. sending prayers for all of us Moms, especially those of us doing it solo!

    You are a powerful voice of ENCOURAGEMENT for us ALL! Much love sis 🙂

  17. November 6, 2016

    Kara Reply

    I have been there, and anemia is no joke.
    I found myself where you are about a year ago, not with anemia but depression. My IV fix was a counselor, the best gift I’ve ever given myself. Take care of yourself challenge accepted.

  18. November 14, 2016

    Team Gillis Realtor Reply

    My prayers are with you and your family. Just be strong no matter what. They are only tests that test us how confident, smart and determine we are to to surpass those obstacles in our lives.

  19. November 19, 2016

    Susan C Reply

    Ok…I need to get someone to help me with the 3 kids (2 w special needs and also a set of twins). I’m tired.

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