to the mom that feels lost in motherhood

No one told me that could happen.

I think back to all the birthing classes and books and early busy busy years of motherhood and I don’t think that I ever had anyone tell me that it’s easy to lose me in the motherhood story. In fact, I think I was led to believe that the more I gave and the more that I said no and worked and achieved that the better mom I would become and that was the right and noble thing to do.

I get being a good mom.

I really do.

I get birthdays and streamers from the doorway and preschool and lunches with notes in the lunchbox and sometimes laughing and sometimes crying. I get motherhood. I get silly selfies and times laughing playing Super Mario.

But somehow in that journey I faded just a bit.

Not entirely, but a bit.

And then then in the last couple of years as I’ve been jolted from normal and what I thought life was I had those times of looking in the mirror and the reflection looking back at me was a bit foreign.

Were those wrinkles that now dot the corners of my eyes from laughter and smiles or were they just indicative of stress? Where was the girl with the dreams – the one who would stop and stare at the storms roll in? Where was the creativity? The dreams?

It wasn’t like I intended to lose that bit of me in motherhood.

It just happened.

Year after year. Busy after busy. Book after book. Idea after idea.

It just faded as the years rolled on.

The kids grew.

The babes that demanded 24 hour attention moved from toddlers being chased to days when I could drop them off and then find myself alone and looking around and thinking, well now what?


Maybe that’s you too.

Maybe when you look in the mirror the reflection looking back isn’t anyone you recognize anymore.

Well, silly as that might sound, that’s not entirely bad.

Because before we get down on that reflection I want you to remember everything you’ve learned. All the babes you rocked and hair tucked behind ears and nights spent sleeping on hard floors holding little hands. I want you to remember all the times when you thought you couldn’t go on and yet look there you are – here now – because you mustered that strength to go on.

I want you to see how beautiful that person looking back at you is.

Even though she’s probably tired and older and if you’re like me have those wrinkles that even the best age defying promising creams couldn’t stop from coming. And then, then I want you to remember.

I want you to remember you.

It’s a bit scary actually.

Especially when there have been so many years identifying ourselves as mom and in those years losing that bit of us. That spunk we celebrate in our daughters. That tenacity and beauty and loving bit too. I don’t think any of us thought we’d get so busy and life would be so crazy that our dreams and our hearts and what we identify ourselves as would be put on the shelf for a bit.

So big breath.


We are not going to forget about us in our journey of motherhood.

We are going to grow along with the littles that we raise to middles to teens to adults. And we will be stronger and we will celebrate with each other the moments we look at each other and exclaim that we did well. We’ll paint and dance and sing and create and write and be dream builders in the middle of the busy.

Maybe it is just a minute here and a moment there but let me tell you those moments tucked into the day when you allow that girl of you that is still in the mom and that fighter of you are the moments where you become stronger.

Our children need us to remember us.

It doesn’t mean that we jump on a plane and leave. Or that we throw in the motherhood towel of surrender. No. Because remember that picture of you in the mirror? Do you remember how beautiful that person is? Even if you don’t see it. And I know there are so many of you with a list of reasons why. So to you I’m telling  you that for the next five minutes you are to not allow those doubts, regrets or mistakes have any definition on who you are now.


You can pick them up. But right now?

Right now I want you to simply be proud of you.

Of the mom. Of the dreams. Of all that you have become.

You can find you again.

You can.


So sweet mom who might have lost herself a bit these past years I am the one right now telling you that you are worth fighting for you. You are so worth it.

I believe in you.

I believe in you as a mom.

I believe in you.

And together, with community, we will raise a generation of children.

While celebrating our victories as well.


10 Responses to “to the mom that feels lost in motherhood”

  1. August 13, 2015

    Renee Mansfield Reply

    I love this post!!! It spoke right to my heart. My kids are 7 & 3. & last year our home burned to the ground. I’ve spent the last year trying to make sure my kids were ok & so was my husband (he was the one that accidentally caught the house on fire). Motherhood is hard in the best circumstances but this has been a real struggle. Finding myself again is my goal. I know that everyone will benefit if I can fine me again.

  2. August 14, 2015

    Cari Reply

    I love, love, love this! So true are the countless times I’ve asked my kids (and myself) what they thought my hobbies and interests were. Crickets I say! No reply or I don’t knows. Silly kids (and me) don’t they know, the only things that ever seem to matter to Mom are her family and THEIR interests and hobbies! We are always putting off ourselves in every way possible (sometimes reluctantly and with grimace) but always in hopes to make others happy! That why we have been blessed to be mothers. Guilt sets in when I think about my own needs. My husband also shares this plight (the guilt I mean; he has hobbies and interests though!) he begs me to find a way to put myself first sometimes. He swears it’s for the betterment of the family. But like my own mother, I’m sure the years will pass until there are no more pitter-patter of feet running through the hall of our home before I learn to find myself again. And it’s okay to be okay with that! We are definitely worth it and with persistence eventually we WILL find her again! Love to all the parents out there making a difference!

  3. November 3, 2015

    Kimberly Reply

    This hit very dear to my heart. As I struggle with raising my daughter by myself. I tend to lose myself alot and believe in my value. Not only to myself but to her too. This little message hits home and reminds me I need o believe, value and breathe
    Thank you for sharing

  4. January 16, 2016

    Erin Reply

    I just wanted to let you know how much I love reading your posts! They always seem to be exactly what I need to hear to get me through the days of parenting. Thank you!!

  5. April 10, 2016

    Katherine Reply

    Thank you so much for this. You are so encouraging and real and I really appreciate your perspective!

  6. April 28, 2016

    Sharon Reply

    I love your posts so much. I have decided that instead of opening fb in the mornings I am going to read your posts. I think that makes for a much better start to the day x

  7. June 28, 2016

    Irena Reply

    Oh…this post has come to me like a answer to my question for some time.
    Thank you for the preaty words of support of me mom that lost herself. 🙂

  8. July 31, 2017

    Jill Reply

    Lost and I don’t know how to begin to find my way back to me.

  9. December 5, 2017

    Jessica Reply

    Thank you so much! I’m in tears right now typing this, but I wanted you to know that your article made me so happy. I was still discovering who I was when I had my first, then soon after, my second. I feel like all that I am now is mom and maid. “I believe in you as a mom. I believe in you.” That is exactly what I needed. Thank you so much.

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