Several weeks ago my husband challenged me to change my thinking. He asked that whenever I get worried about something that instead of sitting in the fear that I turn it to thanks. For example, if I was worried about finances I would recognize the worry and then thank God for providing for our family and for His abundance.
I fought doing this. Like crazy.
I wanted to sit in my worry — because I knew all the answers, right? And slowly, I found that instead of trusting I was becoming a bit pessimistic. And this, my friends, goes against my nature. So Todd, my husband, asked me again to praise whenever I was fearful.
I fought doing this. Again.
So I’d find myself awake at 2am while the rest of my family slept. Then when I’d awake, I’d be crabby — fearful. I’d storm around the house, muttering my dissatisfaction with everything — thus creating such a mood of discontent.
Then finally, I decided to try.
When anxiety welled up inside — health, or how to afford homeschool supplies, or job ops, or more — I just praised. I thanked our Father for what He has already provided and what will be provided. And gradually, I felt the robes of fear begin to fall off. I was looking at my plans, my agendas, my goals and was becoming discontent when they weren’t what I expected. Or wanted. I had been comparing myself and thus losing my contentment.
Until those days of thanks.
I had been so full of self and my own wants that I forgot to see what I was blessed with. Even though things might not be what I always imagined, I am still greatly blessed. I have a home, wonderful children, a faithful husband, food on my table, good health, a husband in remission, great neighbors, excellent friends, freedom to worship, freedom to homeschool — how could I forget all these?
I had forgotten because I forgot the need to be grateful.
Today, can I challenge you to post a comment of one thing that you are grateful for? Perhaps it is even simply blogger — there is great freedom in our ability to express ourselves. This a freedom that many do not have. Or for your health. Or your kids. Or your spouse. Or our country. Whatever it is — give thanks.
And I pray, that your words and ponderings about gratitude will fill your day with joy.